| And now it was evening.
And Almitra
the seeress said, "Blessed be this day and this place and your spirit that has
spoken."
And he answered, Was it I who spoke?
Was I not also a listener?
Then he descended the steps of the
Temple and all the people followed him. And he reached his ship and stood upon the deck.
And facing the people again, he
raised his voice and said:
People of Orphalese, the wind bids me
leave you.
Less hasty am I than the wind, yet I
must go.
We wanderers, ever seeking the
lonelier way, begin no day where we have ended another day; and no sunrise finds us where
sunset left us.
Even while the earth sleeps we
travel.
We are the seeds of the tenacious
plant, and it is in our ripeness and our fullness of heart that we are given to the wind
and are scattered.
Brief were my days among you, and
briefer still the words I have spoken.
But should my voice fade in your
ears, and my love vanish in your memory, then I will come again,
And with a richer heart and lips more
yielding to the spirit will I speak.
Yea, I shall return with the tide,
And though death may hide me, and the
greater silence enfold me, yet again will I seek your understanding.
And not in vain will I seek.
If aught I have said is truth, that
truth shall reveal itself in a clearer voice, and in words more kin to your thoughts.
I go with the wind, people of
Orphalese, but not down into emptiness;
And if this day is not a fulfillment
of your needs and my love, then let it be a promise till another day. Know therefore, that
from the greater silence I shall return.
The mist that drifts away at dawn,
leaving but dew in the fields, shall rise and gather into a cloud and then fall down in
rain.
And not unlike the mist have I been.
In the stillness of the night I have
walked in your streets, and my spirit has entered your houses,
And your heart-beats were in my
heart, and your breath was upon my face, and I knew you all.
Ay, I knew your joy and your pain,
and in your sleep your dreams were my dreams.
And oftentimes I was among you a lake
among the mountains.
I mirrored the summits in you and the
bending slopes, and even the passing flocks of your thoughts and your desires.
And to my silence came the laughter
of your children in streams, and the longing of your youths in rivers.
And when they reached my depth the
streams and the rivers ceased not yet to sing.
But sweeter still than laughter and
greater than longing came to me.
It was boundless in you;
The vast man in whom you are all but
cells and sinews;
He in whose chant all your singing is
but a soundless throbbing.
It is in the vast man that you are
vast,
And in beholding him that I beheld
you and loved you.
For what distances can love reach
that are not in that vast sphere?
What visions, what expectations and
what presumptions can outsoar that flight?
Like a giant oak tree covered with
apple blossoms is the vast man in you.
His mind binds you to the earth, his
fragrance lifts you into space, and in his durability you are deathless.
You have been told that, even like a
chain, you are as weak as your weakest link.
This is but half the truth. You are
also as strong as your strongest link.
To measure you by your smallest deed
is to reckon the power of ocean by the frailty of its foam.
To judge you by your failures is to
cast blame upon the seasons for their inconsistency.
Ay, you are like an ocean,
And though heavy-grounded ships await
the tide upon your shores, yet, even like an ocean, you cannot hasten your tides.
And like the seasons you are also,
And though in your winter you deny
your spring,
Yet spring, reposing within you,
smiles in her drowsiness and is not offended.
Think not I say these things in order
that you may say the one to the other, "He praised us well. He saw but the good in
us."
I only speak to you in words of that
which you yourselves know in thought.
And what is word knowledge but a
shadow of wordless knowledge?
Your thoughts and my words are waves
from a sealed memory that keeps records of our yesterdays,
And of the ancient days when the
earth knew not us nor herself,
And of nights when earth was
upwrought with confusion,
Wise men have come to you to give you
of their wisdom. I came to take of your wisdom:
And behold I have found that which is
greater than wisdom.
It is a flame spirit in you ever
gathering more of itself,
While you, heedless of its expansion,
bewail the withering of your days.
It is life in quest of life in bodies
that fear the grave.
There are no graves here.
These mountains and plains are a
cradle and a stepping-stone.
Whenever you pass by the field where
you have laid your ancestors look well thereupon, and you shall see yourselves and your
children dancing hand in hand.
Verily you often make merry without
knowing.
Others have come to you to whom for
golden promises made unto your faith you have given but riches and power and glory.
Less than a promise have I given, and
yet more generous have you been to me.
You have given me deeper thirsting
after life.
Surely there is no greater gift to a
man than that which turns all his aims into parching lips and all life into a fountain.
And in this lies my honour and my
reward, -
That whenever I come to the fountain
to drink I find the living water itself thirsty;
And it drinks me while I drink it.
Some of you have deemed me proud and
over-shy to receive gifts.
To proud indeed am I to receive
wages, but not gifts.
And though I have eaten berries among
the hill when you would have had me sit at your board,
And slept in the portico of the
temple where you would gladly have sheltered me,
Yet was it not your loving
mindfulness of my days and my nights that made food sweet to my mouth and girdled my sleep
with visions?
For this I bless you most:
You give much and know not that you
give at all.
Verily the kindness that gazes upon
itself in a mirror turns to stone,
And a good deed that calls itself by
tender names becomes the parent to a curse.
And some of you have called me aloof,
and drunk with my own aloneness,
And you have said, "He holds
council with the trees of the forest, but not with men.
He sits alone on hill-tops and looks
down upon our city."
True it is that I have climbed the
hills and walked in remote places.
How could I have seen you save from a
great height or a great distance?
How can one be indeed near unless he
be far?
And others among you called unto me,
not in words, and they said,
Stranger, stranger, lover of
unreachable heights, why dwell you among the summits where eagles build their nests?
Why seek you the unattainable?
What storms would you trap in your
net,
And what vaporous birds do you hunt
in the sky?
Come and be one of us.
Descend and appease your hunger with
our bread and quench your thirst with our wine."
In the solitude of their souls they
said these things;
But were their solitude deeper they
would have known that I sought but the secret of your joy and your pain,
And I hunted only your larger selves
that walk the sky.
But the hunter was also the hunted:
For many of my arrows left my bow
only to seek my own breast.
And the flier was also the creeper;
For when my wings were spread in the
sun their shadow upon the earth was a turtle.
And I the believer was also the
doubter;
For often have I put my finger in my
own wound that I might have the greater belief in you and the greater knowledge of you.
And it is with this belief and this
knowledge that I say,
You are not enclosed within your
bodies, nor confined to houses or fields.
That which is you dwells above the
mountain and roves with the wind.
It is not a thing that crawls into
the sun for warmth or digs holes into darkness for safety,
But a thing free, a spirit that
envelops the earth and moves in the ether.
If this be vague words, then seek not
to clear them.
Vague and nebulous is the beginning
of all things, but not their end,
And I fain would have you remember me
as a beginning.
Life, and all that lives, is
conceived in the mist and not in the crystal.
And who knows but a crystal is mist
in decay?
This would I have you remember in
remembering me:
That which seems most feeble and
bewildered in you is the strongest and most determined.
Is it not your breath that has
erected and hardened the structure of your bones?
And is it not a dream which none of
you remember having dreamt that building your city and fashioned all there is in it?
Could you but see the tides of that
breath you would cease to see all else,
And if you could hear the whispering
of the dream you would hear no other sound.
But you do not see, nor do you hear,
and it is well.
The veil that clouds your eyes shall
be lifted by the hands that wove it,
And the clay that fills your ears
shall be pierced by those fingers that kneaded it.
And you shall see
And you shall hear.
Yet you shall not deplore having
known blindness, nor regret having been deaf.
For in that day you shall know the
hidden purposes in all things,
And you shall bless darkness as you
would bless light.
After saying these things he looked
about him, and he saw the pilot of his ship standing by the helm and gazing now at the
full sails and now at the distance.
And he said:
Patient, over-patient, is the captain
of my ship.
The wind blows, and restless are the
sails;
Even the rudder begs direction;
Yet quietly my captain awaits my
silence.
And these my mariners, who have heard
the choir of the greater sea, they too have heard me patiently.
Now they shall wait no longer.
I am ready.
The stream has reached the sea, and
once more the great mother holds her son against her breast.
Fare you well, people of Orphalese.
This day has ended.
It is closing upon us even as the
water-lily upon its own tomorrow.
What was given us here we shall keep,
And if it suffices not, then again
must we come together and together stretch our hands unto the giver.
Forget not that I shall come back to
you.
A little while, and my longing shall
gather dust and foam for another body.
A little while, a moment of rest upon
the wind, and another woman shall bear me.
Farewell to you and the youth I have
spent with you.
It was but yesterday we met in a
dream.
You have sung to me in my aloneness,
and I of your longings have built a tower in the sky.
But now our sleep has fled and our
dream is over, and it is no longer dawn.
The noontide is upon us and our half
waking has turned to fuller day, and we must part.
If in the twilight of memory we
should meet once more, we shall speak again together and you shall sing to me a deeper
song.
And if our hands should meet in
another dream, we shall build another tower in the sky.
So saying he made a signal to the
seamen, and straightaway they weighed anchor and cast the ship loose from its moorings,
and they moved eastward.
And a cry came from the people as
from a single heart, and it rose the dusk and was carried out over the sea like a great
trumpeting.
Only Almitra was silent, gazing after
the ship until it had vanished into the mist.
And when all the people were
dispersed she still stood alone upon the sea-wall, remembering in her heart his saying,
A little while, a moment of rest upon
the wind, and another woman shall bear me." |